I really like to make lists. I make them a lot. For instance my list for today has: laundry, grocery store, walk dog, clean bathrooms, pick-up kids, pay bills, start cleaning house for in-laws visit and send important emails. I usually include writing as well. Lately I haven’t been writing.
Admittedly I was traveling with my 11 year old daughter for 2 weeks in April. I blogged a bit about the trip but no ‘writing’ writing. 7 days after we returned I wrote one paragraph and that is it. We are now up to an entire month and I am a mess!
Today two things happened which I think will change my approach. First, I had this really cool dream last night, I don’t normally describe my dreams because, honestly do you want to hear about all the weird laundry my night-time pysche thinks up? No. But this one was interesting to me because I have really been concerned about why I am not taking the time to write.
The Dream: I was in a large warehouse stuffed to the eaves with crap, or maybe it was just a house, we’d recently moved and for some reason I had to find random things so my girls could go to summer camp. A customer — this is a dream– came in and asked me to get something for her that was literally at the top of the pile, pressed against the eaves. I had to tell her I couldn’t do it. This went on for a while until I had this ‘ah hah’ moment when I went outside the building climbed to the top and reached the item from the outside. This was really liberating because I solved my dream problem (mine aren’t usually solved are yours?).
I woke up in an exellent mood and I know I can write today and will continue writing, I was worrying too much–I will be able to solve my writing issue–by continuing to write–even if I have to do something else to get there.
This brings me to the second thing–I realized that I need to let myself write. I use lists to constrain my day, I think list making needs to be toned down. I am lucky to have a flexible schedule but sometimes that leads down the road of list making to make my day seem more full. I need to let that go and let myself write. I’ll let you know how that works out.
If this is at all interesting to you as a writer or reader I also came across 2 blogs today that I added to my favs so I can follow them http://procrastinatingwritersblog.com/2010/04/morning-pages-an-experiment/
I realize this has been a ‘me, me, me’ post, oh well… :), I think I will also experiemnt with the morning pages (15 minutes early??) and see where it takes me.
So, check off today’s list: no more list making.
“If my doctor told me I only had 6 minutes to live, I wouldn’t brood, I’d type faster.”